others, or if others are growing distant from me. either way it hurts. being pushed away hurts, feeling closed off hurts, seeing people get along the way you once did with them hurts and there’s no right way to say ‘i miss you so much my bones ache but can’t force you to pay mind to me and saying it will only force you to remember i exist when i just want you to remind yourself you once had a friend in me’ and honestly im just dead-ass tired of being the second choice of everyone. your friends aren’t conditional. no one in your life is. you don’t get to decide when to talk and when to ignore someone. and if you feel that way about a person, they’re not your friend. and you sure as hell aren’t a friend for them
